Hello Goodbye

I'm ready like i have always been

So as much as I don't want to think about it, I think you are one cutie

Missing my Camera so terribly right now

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Let go

Certain things are hard to let go, especially the ones that still haven't tie the knot on the ends. Just recently had a dream about working things out with a friend, I woke up slightly mad knowing that what happened was nothing but a dream, something I wish I could have a closure with. It's been almost a year to this stupid incident and I thought that I had long gotten over, but the truth is that I'm still not over it, I might've forgotten about it but that's it.

So closure, it's such a cliche that girls always need a closure in movies, and always used in such a negative sense, but what's so bad about closures anyway. it's just a need for knowing that's going on, it's a need to close that door in a voluntary way.

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.

- Groucho Marx

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.

- Good Morning and Good Night

I'm not really trying to let anything go right now, definitely feel okay as where I am right now. On a path heading straight to the future but I can still see the scenery from the past all around me. But I just love what this quote is saying because there were/are/will be times when you feel like you can let it go.

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint you can on it.

- Danny Kaye

If you have an hour, will you not improve that hour, instead of idling it away?

- Lord Chesterfield

And that's how it's done

i'm just glad I talked to you today

shame

no blame no anger
it's the moments when you realize what you've done
and seeing the way you've acted

it's a shame i drove you away

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option

Whenever you are feeling sad whenever you are feeling angry whenever you are feeling like you can breath turn that negative energy into your drive turn that into your motivation to become better make that become your focus rather than spending countless hours feeling helpless and weak and vulnerable think about the more important things. Boys come and go parents wont stick around for the rest of your life but you gotta deal with all the consequences so think about the more important things

Evaluation

Received a text today from a dear friend of mine

She said :" I don't wanna be a drama queen but i always get late notices from you"

And suddenly it hit me

I really am not as good of a friend as I thought I had always been

I get so caught up with the things going on in my own life I really start to ignore those who are around me

Something else also happened just yesterday

I called one of my closest friends to see if he wanted to have lunch together

and the first thing he said, was "what do you want, you always want something when you call"

of course in a jokingly tone

but the same feeling hit me right in the face again

he is right

i do always call him because i want someone to talk to, because i wanna go for a walk, because i wanna get someone to get food with me

Maybe it's time to reevaluate myself as a friend

I feel like i'm just over reacting just a little as i always do

but regardless of the  severity of this issue

I guess i should try to be a better friend

rather than just letting nature do its course all by itself

Patience is not the ability to wait, but to keep a good attitude while waiting

We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have

regardless

regardless of what is really going on
i do appreciate everything you've done
thank you for your sincerity and patience

There are always goals. If you dont have a mountain, build one then climb it. And after you climb it, build another one; otherwise you start to flatline in your life.

- sylvester stallone

you are fire

so i'm not as logical as i thought
so i'm not as strong as i thought
never thought i'd be writing about you
never thought it would be anything more than heat of the moment
so i guess i was just playing with fire

i can't stand it when i'm doing all the things we used to do, with someone else

i miss

i miss how we used to talk so much
i miss how there were no boundaries to what we say
i miss how i never used to worry about nothing with you
i miss never having to check my phone because i know you would've texted me back already
i miss getting your texts at five in the morning then i can go back asleep for half an hour and contently knowing i can text you back already
i miss the day you put your arm around my shoulders
i miss being carried upside down by you
i miss getting your texts when i just saw you ten minutes ago
i miss how you encouraged me to sneak out to hang out with you
i miss having so much fun with you
i miss all the things we used to do

If you meet a person who cares about the same obscure things you do, hold on to them for dear life. Sympathy is medicine.

- Frank Chimero

so what

so i love life
so i will never be one of those stupid girls
so i don't enjoy drinking like a rock star
so i like math and my calculus dearly
so i'm nice and bubbly
so i absolutely hate hearing the same techie dancy songs on the radio every 10 min

and i absolutely love the athlete
so what

Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours.

- Dale Carnegie

Don't worry, you are not the only one

“Right now, there are people all over the world who are just like you. They’re lonely. They’re missing somebody. They’re in love with someone they probably shouldn’t be in love with. They have secrets you wouldn’t believe. They wish and they dream and they hope, and they look out the window whenever they’re in the car or on a bus or a train and they watch the people on the streets and wonder what they’ve been through. They wonder if there are people out there like them. They’re like you, and you could tell them everything and they would understand. And right now, they’re sitting here reading these words, and I’m writing this for you so you don’t feel alone anymore.”

Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do

- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Courage is the fear of being thought a coward.

 - Horace Smith

Keep your friendships in repair.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson


(amazing day with the bestie, just kinda forgot how amazing it is to hang out with you and no one could replace your amazingness, i've missed this too much)

I am still angry with you
I am still disappointed with me
i can no longer look at you the same way as i once did
ever

but you are still my inspiration
this is stupid

When you cease to make a contribution, you begin to die

- Eleanor Rooselvelt

How I Interpret it: either to the world or simply yourself, the moment you stop making efforts to create something, to better something, you begin to lose yourself in you and the world

(so i've definitely fell in love with Eleanor's words of wisdom, unlike many other famous people, i find the words she speak genuine and warm and always so full of hope and love for life, and i think at this point in my life, I need that, and i cherish them)

an update

so i haven't exactly been keeping the promise to myself, finding a quote everyday, but i'm gonna make it up by posting 2-3 quotes for the next couple of days.

and as for the update part, I've had a pretty rough week, just wasn't in the mood to really do any exploration or anything that requires any effort, i think in a way i was too fearful to look into myself and talk about how i was feeling. i'm just too easily influenced by boys, i get so light headed from happiness or anger or melancholy. i try to look for the answer but really didn't find any useful answers.

other than that, talked to this friend i was really really close with, but then i supposed life happened and we drifted apart, farther than what we thought was even possible. so i guess if you are reading this, i want to apologize for the attitude i was having regarding the issue/conversation, i could've been a little more positive and could've tried a little harder, but at the same time, i have no regret about what i said, because that's exactly how i felt, what i thought, and i still really can't believe you blocked me. although it's not really a big deal for me, i just thought you were more mature than that.

just last bit, i find myself complaining about people blowing me off or ignoring me at times, but then i just realized that i do the same to my friends as well, not just the random friend i met from chemistry class or the food court, but some of my closest friends, i do that to them, and i'm just sincerely sorry for that. i will definitely try harder to be a better friend than i am, and i'm still super uber grateful for the fact that you guys are still sticking around.

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.

- Eleanor Roosevelt

Respect your efforts, respect yourself. Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that's real power.

- Clint Eastwood

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

I stand for freedom of expression, doing what you believe in, and going after your dreams

- Madonna Ciccone

Nothing great in the world has ever been accomplished without passion

- Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel

Everyone you are jealous of is most likely jealous of you back. Envious of your friend’s high-intensity job? She is probably envious of your sweet vacation schedule. Wish your blog had a bigger readership? The girl with the bigger blog might be jealous of your ability to write whatever you want on your sponsorship-free blog. Wish you were a celebrity? A celebrity probably wishes they could go on a date and not have TMZ write about it that same night. Next time you feel jealous, instead of wallowing, ask yourself what this other person is probably jealous of about you. (What you are really doing is reminding yourself of all the good things you have going for you).

- Smart Pretty & Awkward

Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow

- Doug Firebaugh

Arguing with a fool proves there are two

- Doris M. Smith

PROJECT INSPIRATION

so i know that there's been a lot of people doing 365 days picture journals, i think it's quite fantastic but a little unrealistic for me, so i thought why not a 365 days worth of inspirational quotes, either about life, growth, friends, love or dreams.

so here's my proposal, i am going to start posting a quote (or more) everyday, reflecting my thoughts for the day. i think it's gonna be a great way to boost personal growth and as well as just a great way to be inspired and stay on track.

and don't be shy to leave me a comment or what not, or simply tell me your favourite quote. so here we go

Why the eff do i suck at boys so much!

I really wish i knew what i was doing wrong

what am i still lacking

it just seems like they can never stick around for too loong

I dont wanna make you do things you dont want to do

im not gonna make you apologize if you didnt truly mean it

if this is what you wanna do, then fine by me. Im not gonna go seek for some silly apology because obiviously if u didnt care about it enough why should i

BACKIIBASIC IS NOW EMAIL FRIENDLY?

Yay indeeed sir

Hes just not that into you

To all the girls out there, never lose your independence. There is nothing sexier when a girl wants but doesn't need you. It means she is strong and can take care of herself and mature. And by the end of the day no one is forced to take care of you except yourself so always make sure you are doing what is best for yourself. Its like what they say, dont expect others to respect yourself if you dont even respect yourself. so you may be so incredibly in love at this moment but who can promise that things will never change. Im not being a pessimist right now but all im saying is that always make sure you dont lose the ability to walk on your own. When shit hits the fan you gotta have a way out and not be scared of the unknown or simply the un-familiars

and just in case you were wondering i got the title because i did something really stupid today and reminded me that movie.guess its time refresh my memory and watch it again

BIKE RIDE

woke up this morning and just felt like going out for a bike ride and IT WAS AMAZING!! kinda just rode without even looking at the trail map and ended up in this side of the town i've never been, so i had to ask this guy where i was, luckily my sense of direction is pretty tight and eventually found my way back to where i started. after 3 hours of biking riding my butts and thighs were sore like crazy, thank goodness i'm not that sore any more tho.

OH AND MADE 20% tip tonight pretty sweet

WHAT IS LOVE?

Im content & satisfied as to who i am. Finally feeling like nothing is being hidden finally feeling like i dont need to pretend to be someone else for anyone. Finally really enjoying the tiniest things and ready to be blown away by anything. I think liberated is the word im looking for. Although at the very same time i see how this drifting apart thing is gonna take its own course. You have been absolutely the worst friend that you have been. I know you are prob not doing it on purpose because i do this too but i just never thought this day would actually come. Feeling wishful for something miraculous to happen. Frustrated too see this happen. Hopeless for which i dont know how to fix it and finally tired for i have tried to give you the excuses but it just wont help.

feels like we are losing it already

feels much better this time around =)

SMILE

cuz there's more people who would love to see you smile than you think

fyi, this is for you loose bum =p

hope this just made your day like you made mine =)

so maybe this is fate, when a door closes on you, another slowly creeps open on another side. so don't be afraid to lose because you will never what you are missing while holding onto the memories

so i will take this for what it seems

so i might be more cautious

so i might be more holding back

but at least i know that i won't be worrying for the same reasons as before

i won't be dealing with the same problems as before

i'm not gonna fall for you like in the movies

but i'm just simply enjoying your presence here and now

and making me smile for all the different reasons

So i think i know exactly what this will turn into if i dont watch out for those little details. Its not about the things i do or not do it really is about changing my way of looking at it and feel about it and that starts right here

too friendly or too needy

too forgiving or too scared of losing

too paranoid or too afraid of admitting

too much time for me or too little time for them

i hate how i always end up being the one who text first

i hate how i always end up being the one who is so aware of my friends lives but never vice versa

i hate how i am always more excited to hangout with my friends than they are

how about something for a change

for once i know exactly how much I mean to my friends

like the way they mean to me

I am insecure. I am judgemental. I am hypocritical. I am prejudicial. I am weak. I am sensitive. I am unoriginal. I am uncreative. I am materialistic. I am pretentious.

And just as i thought i have finally found the peace within myself the annoyance just settled itself right back at home. Honestly are you doin this purposely just to piss me off? Well congrats youve succeeded and it really is effing effective. Well now at least i know how to get myself angry if i ever need to do so. So really thanks a lot for takin away that bit of serenity and turn it into an effing hail storm.

Time to take down these shields
they've been with me for too long
always scared of what people are going to think
if i'm going to do something or not
living through life dodging the possibility of misunderstanding
Walking along the pre-percepted path of jessie


but

i cant breath
when all im worried about is that
"is this gonna give off the wrong idea?"

So just see me for who i am
not who i'm supposed to be
because even if that was me
its not anymore

Time to take down these shields
they've been with me for too long
always scared of what people are going to think
if i'm going to do something or not
living through life dodging the possibility of misunderstanding
Walking along the pre-percepted path of jessie


but

i cant breath
when all im worried about is that
"is this gonna give off the wrong idea?"

So just see me for who i am
not who i'm supposed to be
because even if that was me
its not anymore

the journey of growing up

something finally came over and hit me today, i'd say it's quite late for this feeling and attitude, but hey better late then never =) so i've been saying stuff like "work hard and play hard", but the truth is that i guess i never really understood the full context of it, working hard doesn't mean "i think i've worked hard enough for today", rather it really should be let's set an ALMOST impossible goal, and let's get'er done!

seeing that my summer is pretty much half way done and i've honestly not done much, not the work hard part, nor the play hard part (but good thing is that i still have 2 more months to make up for all the lost time) i just need to set my goal in short terms, and accomplish each task one day at a time, cuz the things that i need to do, I REALLY NEED TO DO!!

one more thing for today, my 3 year contract with the worst cell phone carrier (telus) is finally over today, so me and my parents actually went to futureshop to look for new plans and cells, but some shenanigan took place and bottom line i wasn't able to get the phone i wanted and we got into a huge fight, and turned into one gigantic lecture on life AGAIN

what we really fought about was the attitude towards life, it's the battle of the eastern vs. western. everyday i'm taught to live your life, to live your life to the fullest and live your life as if it was your last. that's what i know from living in canada, but that's not what my parents want, they want me to live my life as it was a preparation for tomorrow, "it's worth it to sacrifice some social life, some friends, some fun to make sure that i will have all the fancy cars, house, jewels in the future", that i don't disagree either, but there's gotta be a balance. I'M ONLY 19, i don't know what i want in the future yet, i don't have all the experience you had to want you want for me. i don't need the million house nor the extravagant porches. what i want right now is what every other young person wants, to enjoy life as it is, to be reckless and young and exciting. this is the most exhilarating age in my life, i can't be so worried about my future that i don't do anything. i'm not saying that i'm gonna be stupid and party all day and night and brush my teeth with a bottle of jack. i'm still gonna work hard, to ensure that i will have the time and money when i grow up to also enjoy life, but i can't think that far ahead, you will never know what will happen in the future, the best i can do right now, is just do what i gotta do for the next couple little while, make sure that i'm not doing something so stupid that will ruin me for the rest of my life.

i wanna love so hard nothing else matters, i wanna cry so hard that i can barely catch my breath

i wanna get drunk on a beach and wake up in the morning covered in sand

i wanna go on trips just because i feel like it for the second

i wanna start dancing in the middle of the mall just because

but in the end

i still need to finish my tasks that is only possible if i'm 100% focused and not distracted by anything

i need to study so hard that by doing so my future will be just that little bit better, easier

for the past couple weeks my life has kinda been like a rollercoaster (hmm maybe not as extreme), but i did experience quite a bit of things and emotions, and i sorta lost my focus. for the summer i made plans for myself to work on some school material just so that i won't get so caught up again in september.

i've done a lot of thinking since last night, (mostly just foolish stupid angsty thoughts), but still with some somewhat useful stuff, much about life and goals and dreams. it's no question that school/career wise, i'm absolutely lost and aimless, the only thing i know how to do is just to do well, and even with that i lose my motivation at times. with that being said, quite a few things i still really need to work on regardless what i wanna do, or where i wanna go with my life. so i guess my first thing to do is to re-prioritize my tasks, and really follow through them. do i what i have to do first, and leave myself some time for some thinking, searching...

besides that, i kinda wanna write a little on the things that happened recently. it always kinda sucks when things didn't work out the way you hoped. thought a lot about it last night, hate to say it but i was quite emotional. at some point i did think it was different this time and it was gonna be a great summer just hanging out with you. did a lot of arguing with myself but conclusion was that sometimes you can't force things to work if the fundamentals weren't even there. now i just hope that we won't have to go through that awkward phase again, it's just stupid

you give me this feelin

i'm just content as where i am right now

and i'm glad that i'm not worrying about what we are or where we are

i'm glad that i'm not worrying about other girls

i'm glad that i'm not worrying about where we could go

i just love how natural it is with you

i just love how peaceful it is with you

it's not ambitious

i just wanna watch sunsets with you

drink hot chocolate with you

& sit next to you

it's a feeling that makes me wanna play ukulele

although i have no idea how

it's a feeling that makes me just wake up and smile

杜拉拉- 看后感

us girls, we can get too worked up about the tiniest things, blowing everything out of proportion. we are too afraid of getting hurt, or looking like a fool, and we always think about the worst scenario possible when it comes to some situations and always threat to give up what we have, but never really realize what we have until we lose them. so i guess always try to find the solutions rather than giving up, always try to think of what could be rather than what couldn't be. just enjoy the moment and don't get worry in the way of happy-ness

anyway that was my little rant after watching this chinese film 杜拉拉升值记, i thought it really was a great film and i throughly enjoyed every second of it, from the plot to the acting and the fashion, music. the way of the filming was modern & fresh, quite cosmo. and i'm most definitely glad that it was not just another film about the chinese revolution or the kong-fu era

this is my subconscious talking

this is my heart warning

you give me the butterflies i can't resist

you give me the uneasiness and i long for more

the coziest smiles

the safest hugs

day & night

i yearn for the memories that we share

as much as i loved it

still can't help but feeling a little down

this is my vulnerability

as strong as i might seem

i am not

i get hurt

just like anyone else

because i care

wait

i'm really bad at waiting for waiting

so just let me know what you are thinking

tired of guessing

wondering

contemplating

and

in the end

it's just more waiting

so i thought about it

i guess we will always be

but we could never be

relax

back to exactly where i was

how i was

i just need a little bit patience & time

sometimes you know it's meant

and sometimes u just know

perfect

so there are some things, i've been yearning to say but the words always get caught between my teeth. something i know deep down, but wont admit.

for the things that had happened, i'm sorry

i can't face them

never understood why, how

anyone could change so fast

now i know how

still don't know why

i guess the only thing i could say

is that i'm sorry

feel

so that must be how it feels, i know you feel it too.

seeing that person being happier than ever before

with someone else

hearing that person saying that they've never felt that way before

with someone else

deleted photos

deleted memories

do i miss you

do i still care about you

or am i only missing the way i felt

you seem so right to me

but somehow i've always known we could never be

so is it just my imagination

or you are too

debating the emotions

and trying to figure it out

so here i go

i'm leaving for china in 3 hours, although as exciting as it sounds, a mixed feeling is growing inside. being out of context for so long i don't really know what to expect. everything is gonna be all so cutsie just weird. well i'm gonna do some shopping and well i'm really excited to see my grandparents =D haven't seen them in ages i hope i don't cry when i see them.

so i'm really gonna miss here

done done done

SO I'M GONNA BE DONE FIRST YEAR UNI IN 5 HOURS

OMG SO EXCITING

it defintely went by so fast, last night my roommate and i started packing

it's so sad that we are putting our stuff away

and i can't even imagine seeing this room being so empty

awe

=(

it's so obvious

first of all thank god!!

i wouldn't even know what to do otherwise

~~~~~~~~~~~~

there's so much that reminds me of you

you showed me things i wasn't even aware of

you taught me to appreciate things that i've always taken granted for

we did things i've never done before

you brought out another side of me

and i just can't stop thinking about it

i wish you were still

and it's just so obvious to know what's going

or maybe i'm just overthinking again

fuuuuuuuuu....i don't want to think about it but it's the only that's on my mind right now

just gotta get it out my system

and...listening to matt & kim right now

and it sure feels good to listen to something new and fresh

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

SO I WON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT IT

I CAN'T DEAL WITH THAT RIGHT NOW

you

this is how i felt about you

the idea of you

the sweetest teddy bear

wouldn't it be nice if it had worked

but i know otherwise

we gave it a try

and....

that's what happened

i wish i was that kinda girl

the kinda girl that would've made us work

too bad i'm not

sunshine after the storm

in the sun

let's dance

let's sing

let's forget about all the things that makes us scream

it's the clear blue sky after the storm

it's the sun shining in my face

i'm just in such a good mood

always speak your mind

got talking with a friend last night all about my "glorious" past

back in jr. high

and then she asked me

"so what happened? how come you are not doing any of the leadership role stuff now"

i don't know

what happened?

i've always been that kid who spoke my mind

always so involved

but this year i have not done anything

i guess i've been lazying around

not cool

this is not who i am

i should be the one doing everything

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on the other note

i got up super early this morning

its nice to get up so early

breathing in the first batch of fresh of the day

+

the wonderful aroma of starbucks

reminded me of all the early band morning rehearsals

i miss that

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i wanna do marketing

been talking about marketing in music industry lately

damn i wanna do marketing for this

it will be so perfect for me

and so much fun

so challenging

now i just need to know what i need to do to get there

sounds pretty easy?

holding onto the past

for some reason i really can't sleep tonight

all i could think about when i closed my eyes

was all the little details from my hometown

how to get to my house

how to get to my grandparents house

how to get to my middle school

so much information

curiosity

as well as memories

just flooded my mind

i remembered how i used to walk to the market with my mom

getting snacks from all those different places after school

play basketball with the boys at the courtyard in the hospital

i guess i'm just excited to go back to china for the summer

cuz there's so much i want to do

i wanna visit my old apartment

ride a bike and go to all the places i used to go

get the same kind of snacks like i used to

oh i feel so silly for reminiscing the things i used to do already

since i'm only 18 years old

so i got all excited about china so i decided to look up pictures from where i used to live

but nothing came up

couldn't even find any picture for that community

luckily i found my old school's website

and found some familiarity that i was looking for

but they really do a bad job at the website

there's barely any information

but i found a picture of my old friend there

which is always comforting

and my old home room teacher's name on the teacher's honor roll

that made me smile

because she totally deserves it

music

usher's new album is coming out at the end of this month

and i'm guessing most of you don't know about it

i have been a huge fan of usher's since the first time i heard his music

and it's no secret that i have the hugest crush on him

but

what the EFF? he's stopped making good music

as much as i want to still enjoy his tracks

and just have that blinded faith in him

i don't think that grammy winner usher is gonna come back

at least with this album

the so called hit single "hey daddy" has not been played on the radio at all

it's even worse than "love in the club"

at least that song had some minimum play time

and i just listened to his new track "lil freak"

all i want to say is WHAT THE EFF?

it's got no usher in it

the beat is weird

the engineering of the song is weird

the tone is weird

it's like half auto-tuned but not really

USHER

DAMN MAKE SOME REAL SHIT MAN

AND WORK ON YOUR MARKETING STRATEGY!!

CUZ YOU ARE NOT GETTING ANY PUBLICITY

I WANT MY CONFESSION USHER BACK

dreammm

well i haven't really done anything this weekend

watched bunch of tv and movies

maybe i was just being super sensitive

or it was just pure coincidence

but there were alot of stuff on dreaming

almost in everything i watched this weekend

had some content in stressing the importance of dreams

always dream, and always be inspired

then you can live your life without regrets

and you will always have a direction to go

instead going through the motion of life without really looking at what you are doing

so dream

and chase after those dreams

despite what others may tell you

ahhh

shit i have no motivation to study

and the midterms are just couple days away

gotta get my shit together!!!!

so content

have you ever felt like you are just so happy with everything

everything around you

the people

the view

the friends

i most definitely felt this way today with 2 friends

suddenly i just couldn't stop smiling

it was that feeling coming from deep in your heart

and everything just felt so amazing and perfect

i wish there was certain thing as emotion capture

like a camera

it will capture the feelings you want to preserve for years

haha

love the gym!

been going to the gym a lot lately

love the feeling of being healthy =)

start

just talked to a friend whom i haven't talked to in a really long time

it's nice to talk to him again

anyway he reminded me about blogging

since i haven't touched this blog in a while

time to start blogging again?

i think so =)

finally on the right path

just had two amazing nights in a row, career in and ubcma gateway. really opened up my eyes to the options out there, and really helped me to figure out what i like and what i don't like. talking to all the professionals in the field and getting their contact infos really made me feel like a grown up, i like that feeling. business is defs what i like. feels like something that i'm willing to work hard for. oh yeah, im really leaning toward the marketing side, and maybe real estate, and maybe possibly finance, it's still too early to tell, but i guess what school is for, to figure everything out. and with the resources the school has it really is fantastic to get to know more people, talking to them is inspiring

finally feel like i'm on the right path

with the right mind set

and finally doing something right

maybe make some phone calls after this week, to follow up and grab a coffee with some of those people?

oh yeah, really exciting news, i got my first batch of business cards!! yay

it's new start

today i suddenly realized how wasteful i was with my time last semester, i barely did anything, and my marks weren't even that good. sauder is so full of amazing people, people who have big and incredible dreams, and most importantly, and they are already doing whatever it takes now to achieve those goals. so starting from today,

i will become more efficient,

more involved,

and more aware

and more motivated.

because i know, university is only the beginning of it all, after graduation there are going to be more complicated, more difficult things for me to do, and so that's why i need to stretch my limits now, so i will be better prepared for the future. and since i know i want to be one of those inspirational people as well. i will do better, because this is a new start

and school starts again

so school started last week, and it's been pretty good so far, probably should do a bit more work, but my schedule is really fantastic! no classes on tues and thurs, but have like 7 hours of classes on mon wed and fri, but it's alright, at least i've got 4 days off

umm, nothing else is really new, just school, friends, hangouts, nothing too big, so i'm gonna update later =)