Hello Goodbye

I'm ready like i have always been

So as much as I don't want to think about it, I think you are one cutie

Missing my Camera so terribly right now

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Let go

Certain things are hard to let go, especially the ones that still haven't tie the knot on the ends. Just recently had a dream about working things out with a friend, I woke up slightly mad knowing that what happened was nothing but a dream, something I wish I could have a closure with. It's been almost a year to this stupid incident and I thought that I had long gotten over, but the truth is that I'm still not over it, I might've forgotten about it but that's it.

So closure, it's such a cliche that girls always need a closure in movies, and always used in such a negative sense, but what's so bad about closures anyway. it's just a need for knowing that's going on, it's a need to close that door in a voluntary way.

Each morning when I open my eyes I say to myself: I, not events, have the power to make me happy or unhappy today. I can choose which it shall be. Yesterday is dead, tomorrow hasn't arrived yet. I have just one day, today, and I’m going to be happy in it.

- Groucho Marx

There are things that we never want to let go of, people we never want to leave behind. But keep in mind that letting go isn't the end of the world, it’s the beginning of a new life.

- Good Morning and Good Night

I'm not really trying to let anything go right now, definitely feel okay as where I am right now. On a path heading straight to the future but I can still see the scenery from the past all around me. But I just love what this quote is saying because there were/are/will be times when you feel like you can let it go.

Life is a great big canvas, and you should throw all the paint you can on it.

- Danny Kaye

If you have an hour, will you not improve that hour, instead of idling it away?

- Lord Chesterfield

And that's how it's done

i'm just glad I talked to you today

shame

no blame no anger
it's the moments when you realize what you've done
and seeing the way you've acted

it's a shame i drove you away

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option

Whenever you are feeling sad whenever you are feeling angry whenever you are feeling like you can breath turn that negative energy into your drive turn that into your motivation to become better make that become your focus rather than spending countless hours feeling helpless and weak and vulnerable think about the more important things. Boys come and go parents wont stick around for the rest of your life but you gotta deal with all the consequences so think about the more important things

Evaluation

Received a text today from a dear friend of mine

She said :" I don't wanna be a drama queen but i always get late notices from you"

And suddenly it hit me

I really am not as good of a friend as I thought I had always been

I get so caught up with the things going on in my own life I really start to ignore those who are around me

Something else also happened just yesterday

I called one of my closest friends to see if he wanted to have lunch together

and the first thing he said, was "what do you want, you always want something when you call"

of course in a jokingly tone

but the same feeling hit me right in the face again

he is right

i do always call him because i want someone to talk to, because i wanna go for a walk, because i wanna get someone to get food with me

Maybe it's time to reevaluate myself as a friend

I feel like i'm just over reacting just a little as i always do

but regardless of the  severity of this issue

I guess i should try to be a better friend

rather than just letting nature do its course all by itself

Patience is not the ability to wait, but to keep a good attitude while waiting

We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have