I really admire

you

are

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so

honest

about

your

thoughts

&

feelings

,

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could

do

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same

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if

anyone

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know

how

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feel

Things to be misunderstood

too many things,

we over analyse,

and others,

we don't analyse it enough,

so why do we always do the opposite from what we are suppose to do.

alright so today, I've had 2 incidents, all have something to do with over analyzing, but interesting enough, i misunderstood the meaning for one, and my message got misunderstood for the other. so i'm just feeling the need to talk about it.

so why? why do we do this, is it the receiver's fault or the sender's fault. i guess both, since we could be sending out the message or we are just over analytical, but the point is, that its really annoy. we get our hopes up, or we start freaking out about nothing. and yes, i'm talking about boys and girls, but i mean, is it your fault if ur just friendly to the opposite sex, and they start to think otherwise? and what's wrong with treating the opposite the same way as the same sex?

i don't know, we don't always say the smartest things at the right times. and on the other side, if we do misunderstand what other people are doing/saying, are we hoping/thinking for otherwise? cuz sometimes, you don't really start to see the "signs" once you've started that thought, thinking about that possibility. like you don't think about how someone could like because of the things they've been doing, unless if u ask yourself: do they like me? oh maybe they do, since they did this and that...well i guess it's like in othello, he didn't really think that his wife was cheating on him, till that bad dude told him to think about it, and watch for the signs, and then it became true for othello, altho it really was all in his head, but then anything friendly his wife did with the other dude, all became the signs that they were getting freaky in the bed....

but..i guess there really isn't anyway to stop it, since we always try to fill out those missing pieces of informations with our curiosity and imagination.

hmmm maybe more direct communication would help, instead of figuring it out in your head...but then it just becomes awkward...maybe...but then it's only awkward if u make it awkward...

I've got these things to say to you

- i really don't understand you, you are either delusional, or have multiple-personality, or you are just a player, i really don't believe in that possibility, of this being true

- i'm sick and tired of you talking about it, i really don't care that much, so find someone else

- maybe it's sign, just that i should STOP what i'm doing, it is not the most honourable thing to do ever

- i'm glad that i'm all over it now, but kinda wish i wasn't at the same time, i think i'm still holding onto that tiny possibility despite everything else

- you are a bitch, what the hell happened? cuz whatever u did, was rude!

- i felt like: the ice is getting thinner!!

Finally, I've got time.........who am I kidding?

So i'm feeling the need to write another blog since i haven't really update anything lately, anyway i just sorta finished my ob project, still got a few questions before i can actually finish it but for now i've done all i can.

honestly, it's been so busy lately, like crazy busy! i think i've never stayed up so late doing work before, EVER! so this is a first =p well i've made a study schedule this weekend already so looks like i'm gonna start the the final madness by the beginning of next week, which, leaves me this weekend, the last weekend to party hard, and by hard I mean probably getting the most trashed i've ever been in my life, sounds like a plan? hahah....well it has been really stressful since my midterms, and since i have like a midterm each week so i haven't really had a chance to lay back and not worry about anything

umm so what else is new, i finally got my second math midterm back, and it's only 72%, i'm a little angry since i didn't have to take this class but i thought about how it could boost my average up, and then i took it, but seeing now it really isn't that much better than my other classes, even english, my worst subject ever. but speaking of english, i definitely have the best eng prof ever...the story starts with the fact that i have english 3 times a week at 8 in the morning, and really i'm not the definition of morning person, so what i'm getting is that i haven't been to many classes, but i talked to my prof on sunday about my attendance, and she's being really nice about it, and told me all i gotta do is to do some extra assignments to make up for it..oh and she also gives me really good marks in english too! and it's weird since i 've always gotten worse marks than what i'm getting now...just hope that final wont be too bad

hopefully they scale my math mark!!

umm that's about it, life really is all about school right now and it sucks...oh well i'll be done by dec 17 and then i shall be free!! oh and i get to drive too!!!

Let's Take A Lil' Break

Alright boys and girls, it is currently 2:44 in the morning and i'm feeling quite awake to be honest...probably cuz of the monster....hmm speaking of monsters, i've probably consumed more energy drinks since university than i've had all my life before uni. i really don't understand why people think it taste nasty...it's quite tasty i like it =D, and it just taste like pop..a lil different that's all...hmm so wouldn't that be like discrimination against energy drinks because they are bigger and called a different name? humm i really am blabbing about nothing

back on track, i wanted to write about my plans and anticipations and worries for the next lil while
1. spanish midterm 2 on friday, so i have a little bit more than 24 hours to study for it, i'm quite worried, since there's a lot of memorization going on, and they mark pretty precisly so missing accents is gonna take off a lot of marks, sad face

2. finished my 2nd last midterm today, felt pretty good about it, timing was really really tight but i managed to "finish" all the questions, besides this question that i just felt like i had no way to do it, so i just kinda ignored, all i did was pretty much just skimming thru the question, without really understanding what it was asking. as for everything else was pretty good, cept the graphing on the last part and also that shirt and pants one, it was really different and really never seen any question like that so hopefully i guessed it right

3. i've had shwayze's GET U HOME stuck in my head the whole day, it's a good song, but kinda really plain, nothing like BUZZIN', cuz that is defs the best song by them i don't care what others say..it really just makes me wanna lay back relax and feel the ocean breeze brushing my face

4. besides spanish, i still need to finish my comm 299 presentation write up tomorrow which really suck seeing that i don't really have all that much time to study for span already

5. have OB final prject next thursday and eng final essay next next week, and after that it's final exam time so it's pretty hectic, don't really have a break from midterms to finals

6. althought i'm really excited to go back to calgary, to drive, to hang out with friends, to go out to clubs, and hit the hills (yeah this is making me sound like i'm a pro, but i'm really not that good at snowboarding at all, just started two winters ago, but neverthless, it's still tons of fun, and you really get not other feeling like it)

7. music pick for now: 1. SHWAYZE, although i don't like the new album as much, its still really good, it's got good beats. 2. GIRL TALK, i've been listening to it for probs two weeks now, and still really really into him, this guy really knows how to make it pop. 3. this is only one song, but it's YOU GIVE ME SOMTHING by james morrison, its just so mellow ( i wish i could play the guitar for it)

8. alright lastly guys, i talked to my parents over msn for the first time today, it was pretty exciting, showed them my room, my decorations, and how much neater i am now than i was before, oh man i'm excited to go back and get some real home gourmet food..its gonna be amazing

9. final shout out to daniel kong and your BLACK RENASSAINCE, (yeah i feel like i probably spelt that wrong), anyway so you've gotten me into fashion now, which i really love, so thanks for all your cool critiques on the fashion shows =D...p.s. i think you are a amazing person n i really don't know how you do so many things at the same time, and still do it so well....crazy!!


alright so here's it, my 2 o'clock distraction - rant.... will be updating pretty often now i think...

oh and question, hows my new lay out? let me know!!!!

What an EXCITING day!

Alright so today I finally creeped the Fringe filming crew today at UBC, after missing it last week.

And if you didn't know, Fringe is one of my favourate TV shows, along with Gossip Girl and Super Natural. Well here's a little intro to what fringe is, since a lot of you have never even heard of the show before

So the show happens around the "Fringe" devision in FBI, who investigates the "Pattern", which is whole bunch of uber crazy science experiments done on human, so that they have these crazy abilities to affect other people, to grow uber fast, or cause other people to die in really strange ways. The main characters on the show are Olivia Dunham - FBI agent, Walter Bishop - crazy scientist who used to work for the government, and Peter Bishop - uber smart dude, and also son of Walter Bishop.

Anyway, so I talked to this Production Assistant dude about the show, he doesn't really know what's going on, but he did tell me that fringe is now mostly filmed in Vancouver till March, so I've got plenty of time to meet the main characters =D, since a lot of it will be filmed in UBC too!!

oh and i've snapped a few pics of the production trailers and these "FBI" dudes in their black suits with their black sedans, but didn't see any action tho, oh well, i've gotten lots of time to creep

oh and thanks to roomie Alessia, Laura and Thomas for texting about the trailers. I probably would've missed it again. =( so thanks guys =D

First Blog?

so here's my first blog, although i really should be studying for econ.

Damn there's so much to know and so little time, i really don't know how i'm gonna pull this one so wish me luck guys?

well so i'm gonna make this entry a short one so i can get back to econ

ps. i need to take another course for next semester, so physics or visual art? let me know!