i've done a lot of thinking since last night, (mostly just foolish stupid angsty thoughts), but still with some somewhat useful stuff, much about life and goals and dreams. it's no question that school/career wise, i'm absolutely lost and aimless, the only thing i know how to do is just to do well, and even with that i lose my motivation at times. with that being said, quite a few things i still really need to work on regardless what i wanna do, or where i wanna go with my life. so i guess my first thing to do is to re-prioritize my tasks, and really follow through them. do i what i have to do first, and leave myself some time for some thinking, searching...
besides that, i kinda wanna write a little on the things that happened recently. it always kinda sucks when things didn't work out the way you hoped. thought a lot about it last night, hate to say it but i was quite emotional. at some point i did think it was different this time and it was gonna be a great summer just hanging out with you. did a lot of arguing with myself but conclusion was that sometimes you can't force things to work if the fundamentals weren't even there. now i just hope that we won't have to go through that awkward phase again, it's just stupid
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