so i haven't exactly been keeping the promise to myself, finding a quote everyday, but i'm gonna make it up by posting 2-3 quotes for the next couple of days.
and as for the update part, I've had a pretty rough week, just wasn't in the mood to really do any exploration or anything that requires any effort, i think in a way i was too fearful to look into myself and talk about how i was feeling. i'm just too easily influenced by boys, i get so light headed from happiness or anger or melancholy. i try to look for the answer but really didn't find any useful answers.
other than that, talked to this friend i was really really close with, but then i supposed life happened and we drifted apart, farther than what we thought was even possible. so i guess if you are reading this, i want to apologize for the attitude i was having regarding the issue/conversation, i could've been a little more positive and could've tried a little harder, but at the same time, i have no regret about what i said, because that's exactly how i felt, what i thought, and i still really can't believe you blocked me. although it's not really a big deal for me, i just thought you were more mature than that.
just last bit, i find myself complaining about people blowing me off or ignoring me at times, but then i just realized that i do the same to my friends as well, not just the random friend i met from chemistry class or the food court, but some of my closest friends, i do that to them, and i'm just sincerely sorry for that. i will definitely try harder to be a better friend than i am, and i'm still super uber grateful for the fact that you guys are still sticking around.
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