If you have an hour, will you not improve that hour, instead of idling it away?

- Lord Chesterfield

And that's how it's done

i'm just glad I talked to you today

shame

no blame no anger
it's the moments when you realize what you've done
and seeing the way you've acted

it's a shame i drove you away

Never allow someone to be your priority while allowing yourself to be their option

Whenever you are feeling sad whenever you are feeling angry whenever you are feeling like you can breath turn that negative energy into your drive turn that into your motivation to become better make that become your focus rather than spending countless hours feeling helpless and weak and vulnerable think about the more important things. Boys come and go parents wont stick around for the rest of your life but you gotta deal with all the consequences so think about the more important things

Evaluation

Received a text today from a dear friend of mine

She said :" I don't wanna be a drama queen but i always get late notices from you"

And suddenly it hit me

I really am not as good of a friend as I thought I had always been

I get so caught up with the things going on in my own life I really start to ignore those who are around me

Something else also happened just yesterday

I called one of my closest friends to see if he wanted to have lunch together

and the first thing he said, was "what do you want, you always want something when you call"

of course in a jokingly tone

but the same feeling hit me right in the face again

he is right

i do always call him because i want someone to talk to, because i wanna go for a walk, because i wanna get someone to get food with me

Maybe it's time to reevaluate myself as a friend

I feel like i'm just over reacting just a little as i always do

but regardless of the  severity of this issue

I guess i should try to be a better friend

rather than just letting nature do its course all by itself

Patience is not the ability to wait, but to keep a good attitude while waiting

We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have

regardless

regardless of what is really going on
i do appreciate everything you've done
thank you for your sincerity and patience

There are always goals. If you dont have a mountain, build one then climb it. And after you climb it, build another one; otherwise you start to flatline in your life.

- sylvester stallone

you are fire

so i'm not as logical as i thought
so i'm not as strong as i thought
never thought i'd be writing about you
never thought it would be anything more than heat of the moment
so i guess i was just playing with fire

i can't stand it when i'm doing all the things we used to do, with someone else

i miss

i miss how we used to talk so much
i miss how there were no boundaries to what we say
i miss how i never used to worry about nothing with you
i miss never having to check my phone because i know you would've texted me back already
i miss getting your texts at five in the morning then i can go back asleep for half an hour and contently knowing i can text you back already
i miss the day you put your arm around my shoulders
i miss being carried upside down by you
i miss getting your texts when i just saw you ten minutes ago
i miss how you encouraged me to sneak out to hang out with you
i miss having so much fun with you
i miss all the things we used to do

If you meet a person who cares about the same obscure things you do, hold on to them for dear life. Sympathy is medicine.

- Frank Chimero

so what

so i love life
so i will never be one of those stupid girls
so i don't enjoy drinking like a rock star
so i like math and my calculus dearly
so i'm nice and bubbly
so i absolutely hate hearing the same techie dancy songs on the radio every 10 min

and i absolutely love the athlete
so what

Are you bored with life? Then throw yourself into some work you believe in with all your heart, live for it, die for it, and you will find happiness that you had thought could never be yours.

- Dale Carnegie

Don't worry, you are not the only one

“Right now, there are people all over the world who are just like you. They’re lonely. They’re missing somebody. They’re in love with someone they probably shouldn’t be in love with. They have secrets you wouldn’t believe. They wish and they dream and they hope, and they look out the window whenever they’re in the car or on a bus or a train and they watch the people on the streets and wonder what they’ve been through. They wonder if there are people out there like them. They’re like you, and you could tell them everything and they would understand. And right now, they’re sitting here reading these words, and I’m writing this for you so you don’t feel alone anymore.”

Knowing is not enough; we must apply. Willing is not enough; we must do

- Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

Courage is the fear of being thought a coward.

 - Horace Smith

Keep your friendships in repair.

- Ralph Waldo Emerson


(amazing day with the bestie, just kinda forgot how amazing it is to hang out with you and no one could replace your amazingness, i've missed this too much)

I am still angry with you
I am still disappointed with me
i can no longer look at you the same way as i once did
ever

but you are still my inspiration
this is stupid

When you cease to make a contribution, you begin to die

- Eleanor Rooselvelt

How I Interpret it: either to the world or simply yourself, the moment you stop making efforts to create something, to better something, you begin to lose yourself in you and the world

(so i've definitely fell in love with Eleanor's words of wisdom, unlike many other famous people, i find the words she speak genuine and warm and always so full of hope and love for life, and i think at this point in my life, I need that, and i cherish them)

an update

so i haven't exactly been keeping the promise to myself, finding a quote everyday, but i'm gonna make it up by posting 2-3 quotes for the next couple of days.

and as for the update part, I've had a pretty rough week, just wasn't in the mood to really do any exploration or anything that requires any effort, i think in a way i was too fearful to look into myself and talk about how i was feeling. i'm just too easily influenced by boys, i get so light headed from happiness or anger or melancholy. i try to look for the answer but really didn't find any useful answers.

other than that, talked to this friend i was really really close with, but then i supposed life happened and we drifted apart, farther than what we thought was even possible. so i guess if you are reading this, i want to apologize for the attitude i was having regarding the issue/conversation, i could've been a little more positive and could've tried a little harder, but at the same time, i have no regret about what i said, because that's exactly how i felt, what i thought, and i still really can't believe you blocked me. although it's not really a big deal for me, i just thought you were more mature than that.

just last bit, i find myself complaining about people blowing me off or ignoring me at times, but then i just realized that i do the same to my friends as well, not just the random friend i met from chemistry class or the food court, but some of my closest friends, i do that to them, and i'm just sincerely sorry for that. i will definitely try harder to be a better friend than i am, and i'm still super uber grateful for the fact that you guys are still sticking around.

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience by which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, 'I lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.

- Eleanor Roosevelt

Respect your efforts, respect yourself. Self-respect leads to self-discipline. When you have both firmly under your belt, that's real power.

- Clint Eastwood

All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better

- Ralph Waldo Emerson

I stand for freedom of expression, doing what you believe in, and going after your dreams

- Madonna Ciccone

Nothing great in the world has ever been accomplished without passion

- Georg Wilhelm Friedrich Hegel

Everyone you are jealous of is most likely jealous of you back. Envious of your friend’s high-intensity job? She is probably envious of your sweet vacation schedule. Wish your blog had a bigger readership? The girl with the bigger blog might be jealous of your ability to write whatever you want on your sponsorship-free blog. Wish you were a celebrity? A celebrity probably wishes they could go on a date and not have TMZ write about it that same night. Next time you feel jealous, instead of wallowing, ask yourself what this other person is probably jealous of about you. (What you are really doing is reminding yourself of all the good things you have going for you).

- Smart Pretty & Awkward

Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow

- Doug Firebaugh

Arguing with a fool proves there are two

- Doris M. Smith

PROJECT INSPIRATION

so i know that there's been a lot of people doing 365 days picture journals, i think it's quite fantastic but a little unrealistic for me, so i thought why not a 365 days worth of inspirational quotes, either about life, growth, friends, love or dreams.

so here's my proposal, i am going to start posting a quote (or more) everyday, reflecting my thoughts for the day. i think it's gonna be a great way to boost personal growth and as well as just a great way to be inspired and stay on track.

and don't be shy to leave me a comment or what not, or simply tell me your favourite quote. so here we go

Why the eff do i suck at boys so much!

I really wish i knew what i was doing wrong

what am i still lacking

it just seems like they can never stick around for too loong

I dont wanna make you do things you dont want to do

im not gonna make you apologize if you didnt truly mean it

if this is what you wanna do, then fine by me. Im not gonna go seek for some silly apology because obiviously if u didnt care about it enough why should i

BACKIIBASIC IS NOW EMAIL FRIENDLY?

Yay indeeed sir

Hes just not that into you

To all the girls out there, never lose your independence. There is nothing sexier when a girl wants but doesn't need you. It means she is strong and can take care of herself and mature. And by the end of the day no one is forced to take care of you except yourself so always make sure you are doing what is best for yourself. Its like what they say, dont expect others to respect yourself if you dont even respect yourself. so you may be so incredibly in love at this moment but who can promise that things will never change. Im not being a pessimist right now but all im saying is that always make sure you dont lose the ability to walk on your own. When shit hits the fan you gotta have a way out and not be scared of the unknown or simply the un-familiars

and just in case you were wondering i got the title because i did something really stupid today and reminded me that movie.guess its time refresh my memory and watch it again