BIKE RIDE

woke up this morning and just felt like going out for a bike ride and IT WAS AMAZING!! kinda just rode without even looking at the trail map and ended up in this side of the town i've never been, so i had to ask this guy where i was, luckily my sense of direction is pretty tight and eventually found my way back to where i started. after 3 hours of biking riding my butts and thighs were sore like crazy, thank goodness i'm not that sore any more tho.

OH AND MADE 20% tip tonight pretty sweet

WHAT IS LOVE?

Im content & satisfied as to who i am. Finally feeling like nothing is being hidden finally feeling like i dont need to pretend to be someone else for anyone. Finally really enjoying the tiniest things and ready to be blown away by anything. I think liberated is the word im looking for. Although at the very same time i see how this drifting apart thing is gonna take its own course. You have been absolutely the worst friend that you have been. I know you are prob not doing it on purpose because i do this too but i just never thought this day would actually come. Feeling wishful for something miraculous to happen. Frustrated too see this happen. Hopeless for which i dont know how to fix it and finally tired for i have tried to give you the excuses but it just wont help.

feels like we are losing it already

feels much better this time around =)

SMILE

cuz there's more people who would love to see you smile than you think

fyi, this is for you loose bum =p

hope this just made your day like you made mine =)

so maybe this is fate, when a door closes on you, another slowly creeps open on another side. so don't be afraid to lose because you will never what you are missing while holding onto the memories

so i will take this for what it seems

so i might be more cautious

so i might be more holding back

but at least i know that i won't be worrying for the same reasons as before

i won't be dealing with the same problems as before

i'm not gonna fall for you like in the movies

but i'm just simply enjoying your presence here and now

and making me smile for all the different reasons

So i think i know exactly what this will turn into if i dont watch out for those little details. Its not about the things i do or not do it really is about changing my way of looking at it and feel about it and that starts right here

too friendly or too needy

too forgiving or too scared of losing

too paranoid or too afraid of admitting

too much time for me or too little time for them

i hate how i always end up being the one who text first

i hate how i always end up being the one who is so aware of my friends lives but never vice versa

i hate how i am always more excited to hangout with my friends than they are

how about something for a change

for once i know exactly how much I mean to my friends

like the way they mean to me

I am insecure. I am judgemental. I am hypocritical. I am prejudicial. I am weak. I am sensitive. I am unoriginal. I am uncreative. I am materialistic. I am pretentious.

And just as i thought i have finally found the peace within myself the annoyance just settled itself right back at home. Honestly are you doin this purposely just to piss me off? Well congrats youve succeeded and it really is effing effective. Well now at least i know how to get myself angry if i ever need to do so. So really thanks a lot for takin away that bit of serenity and turn it into an effing hail storm.

Time to take down these shields
they've been with me for too long
always scared of what people are going to think
if i'm going to do something or not
living through life dodging the possibility of misunderstanding
Walking along the pre-percepted path of jessie


but

i cant breath
when all im worried about is that
"is this gonna give off the wrong idea?"

So just see me for who i am
not who i'm supposed to be
because even if that was me
its not anymore

Time to take down these shields
they've been with me for too long
always scared of what people are going to think
if i'm going to do something or not
living through life dodging the possibility of misunderstanding
Walking along the pre-percepted path of jessie


but

i cant breath
when all im worried about is that
"is this gonna give off the wrong idea?"

So just see me for who i am
not who i'm supposed to be
because even if that was me
its not anymore