holding onto the past

for some reason i really can't sleep tonight

all i could think about when i closed my eyes

was all the little details from my hometown

how to get to my house

how to get to my grandparents house

how to get to my middle school

so much information

curiosity

as well as memories

just flooded my mind

i remembered how i used to walk to the market with my mom

getting snacks from all those different places after school

play basketball with the boys at the courtyard in the hospital

i guess i'm just excited to go back to china for the summer

cuz there's so much i want to do

i wanna visit my old apartment

ride a bike and go to all the places i used to go

get the same kind of snacks like i used to

oh i feel so silly for reminiscing the things i used to do already

since i'm only 18 years old

so i got all excited about china so i decided to look up pictures from where i used to live

but nothing came up

couldn't even find any picture for that community

luckily i found my old school's website

and found some familiarity that i was looking for

but they really do a bad job at the website

there's barely any information

but i found a picture of my old friend there

which is always comforting

and my old home room teacher's name on the teacher's honor roll

that made me smile

because she totally deserves it