serenity

so i'm listening to the athletes right now, and i'm just feeling the serenity inside my heart, for the first time in a really time. It's really amazing how just one song, could remind you so much, but yet not much at the same time. It's almost like an abstract picture forms in your head, you remember the feeling, the thoughts, but just not the details.

Athletes, I really haven't listened to them for a really long time, partially i just haven't really had the mood, the peaceful feeling you have to have to truly enjoy this band, because when you slow down, and avoid everything noise in your life, the music becomes your heart beat, and just feel the relaxed beats and sound. and one thing i really like about them, is that they are not trying to be indie, not trying too hard to be different and sacrifice the true meaning of music, because nowadays, too much music is only there for the sake to be there, different for the sake to be different. and this band, i guess really is my virgin indie music group, never really listened to anything other than R&B or hip hop before this. i still remember listening to this whole new genre of music with matt, on the coach bus on the way to nelson. we listened to a lot of music, but i really just remember the athlete and scout for girls. and so we just listened to his music, sitting in the dark bus, watching sakatch talking to other people, and the lights of other cars and how they drove passed us. we didn't talk much. that's the kinda happiness i had with him, the quiet type.

hmm enough of commenting on music and reminiscing , this post was supposed to be a reflection on my inner peace. well i guess i could explain part of how i feel to how late it is. it's 1:46 right now, and also the fact that i finished my second final, out of 5. yesterday i just wrote my first one, calculus, i really didn't mind it all that much, kinda got used to of not being to answer a question or two from the tests, but it really was really two and half hours of intense brain blasting, being so rushed trying to finish all the questions but still trying to avoid stupid mistakes, and after that was another countless hours of studying and stressing about spanish, although i still have 3 more to go, but i feel so much more relieved already.

yesterday threw everything at me - this really is my favourite song by them, but i can never remember song title, well i finally found it, and it was amazing as ever

and now i just feel i'm done talking for the night, goodnight

and ps.

this person just kinda popped into my life again, but i really, really don't get you. as grateful as i am that you are here, and enjoy you being here, i just can't put my fingers around you. what are you really about?